Eat.Pray.Love.

I miss you already more than you can possibly imagine. come back already please.. this has to be a joke..

i dont know what to do with myself anymore. im going crazy. I fucking love him with all of me and gave this everything, i gave him everything and its so easy for him to leave? with no emotion, no effort ? Im always the one crying, sobbing, holding on to my chest because it feels like my heart it being yanked out. He has his friends to turn to that will always tell him to probably leave me alone, the “your better without her”. Yo im so hurt. im so hurt. i feel like im dying i cant even breathe right now. Hes not gonna answer his text either. He wont call. I know him, hes done with me and theres nothing i can say. everything around me reminds me of him . i have to change everything now. no one can say anything to make me feel better. I wanna sleep forever. and noy feel this pain anymore. i canteven write anymore…. 

fluffypaws:

when you listen to a song you used to listen to ages ago and you get that weird as fuck spine chilling feeling as you remember how your life was at that point in time

(via forgetfuckingregret)

How am I with someone, but feel heartbroken. How can i have best friends, but feel so fucking alone. It’s no ones fault but my own, i just wish i could fix it. I cant even cry, though i want to soo bad. Im tired of being the chaser, the relationship-saver. The one who hides her feeling and helps others release theirs. I want to smash my fist into the wall. I’m so angry. I feel like i haven’t said whats on my mind in so long. I express my feelings in my head, silently where it fucking kills me inside little be little. Im so angry at so many poeple for not satisfing me like i thought they knew how to . I dont even know what to do with myself, i write these things but would never say them out loud. I’m gonna lose him, I’m gonna lose him, I’ve lost them. Theres something wrong with me, i know the problem but why i cant i fucking fix it ? why. why. why. It’s not easy to pretend you dont care. I hate him. So many plans that seems clear are now non-exsitent.  Why am I always the one who sticks it through, despite what fucking sucks about it. Always. Always. Always. Im back to staying absolutly slient. Where i cant talk to him or anyone else. there is just no one there. You got t tho.